so i am updating.  for a while i feel i lost purpose with the xanga. coming back is a little bit duanting and even more so about trying to bet connected back from being disconnected.  i dont feel quite there yet but i am getting closer.  so many things unfolded on my travels, no where near the amount that i told on my xanga and creates that sense of change within me.  i feel like i have become a new person but without realizing it and now that i am back have to reaquiant myself with....well..myself.  but its all about that when you come back isnt it

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revisiting

retelling

responding

reevaluting

and reworking

My life has entered the re-stage at the moment.  but thats not whats bothering me, whats bothering me is that i feel at this stage i am disappointing my friends.  I dont know what else to say but that i just dont feel like a good friend. I am missing out on important things because of this re- or that re- thing that is pressing me in my life.  i am sorry guys.  but thank you to my friends that have welcomed me back to the states with such warm enthusiasm.  you know, i kinda thought that you guys would have forgotten all about me and it was the most beautiful feelings to see how far from the truth that was. 

p.s. I am so sorry i missed your birthday because of my travels.  i promise i will make it up to you.  you five make up all my heart and it hurts to know that i could not be there for that fifth piece of my heart. 

Currently Reading Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince (Book 6) By J.K. Rowling see related